Letter to Monica

Can’t you see the way I feel ?
All my fears are now for real
When I close my eyes
I hear the words you said to me
Then I realized how sad life can be

I’m not to blame
You’re the one who makes me fade away
Two years and then
Kiss me goodbye, fuck you anyway !
My friends they say
All the girls are finally still the same
Now I know I’m not insane

So many tears, too many questions
So many weeks, no explanations
When you close your eyes
Do you feel the same as me ?
Did you realize how sad life could be ?

Fading all alone in my smoked out room
As you don’t even seem to care.

What’s going on ?

Monday morning as I hitch a ride
Through the city but no one’s out
What’s going on ?

It’s not raining and Big Ben stopped
The decks are green, The Queen is gone
What’s going on ?

Maybe it’s just in my head
I’ve probably lost my soul
Maybe it’s all real
And I am here all alone ?

Tonight, I’m the King of the town
You’ll never get my throne
Tonight, well the city’s mine
Cool to be on my own
Tonight, everybody’s allowed
To shut his mouth
Tonight, I just feel alright

Whitechapel is safe by night
And the Thames is fucking dry
What’s going on ?

Higher than the sun

My new girlfriend and I
Spent a few days in Amsterdam
Baby we were so…
Smoking inspiration
Greenest stimulation  I had ever found

Baby we were so high

Taking hits from the bong
Reality seems to be so far gone
And so is my money
We were gone beyond
As our brains seemed to be upside down

Baby we were so high.

Last night for a lady

Did you hear the story of the girl
Who slowly died of sorrow ?
Locked in her room on her own

Did you know the story of the girl
Who jumped out of the window ?
Cause she was always alone

Gone from a world she never got to know …

So far away now
She chose a way to follow
Leading to paradise
Safe and relieved now
Cause there won’t be tomorrow
No more tears and no more cries

There’s nothing left to say
She was too sick to stay
She finally chose to go away.

Call it as you wish

Everyday’s just another day
Life does look the same but not today
Nothing’s ever looked better
I feel fine and laid back, yeah

Coz I’ve just met a queen
Well, I mean that girl you used to know
And she looks so pleased
When we sleep together

Call it as you wish
I don’t love you anymore
You can say I’m a bitch
Cause I kicked you out
Call it as you wish
I don’t love you anymore
Soon you’ll be in the ditch
Where I dug you out

Everyday’s just another day
Tomorrow’s closer now than never
I feel like a fish in the water
Everything just looks fine, yeah

Coz we go to the pubs
And we hang in the clubs
From dusk till dawn
And every night meet some new drug dealers.

White line

Let me be your guide
I’ll show you where to go
Now let’s take a ride
Somewhere you don’t know

Life is so precious
That’s what people say
Well, it’s so vicious
That’s what I say

Follow the white line
When you don’t feel okay
Follow the white line
When you miss yesterday
Follow the white line
And I swear that you’ll be fine… come on !

You’re a rat on a mission
Night and day
Where’s your motivation ?
Gone away

You seem so tired
Day after day
Soon you’ll be fired
Now throw the pain away.

Hollywood

Jennifer is a young songwriter
She’s got talent and she’s a good singer
She’s not as cute as Britney or Christina
But she trust herself

On a day with her guitar on her back
Went to L.A. hoping never to be back
Everybody told her to take her chance
And she trust herself

She met a man who would change her life
A famous producer …
He just said she soon will be a rock star
He strongly promised her

Gimme some time and I’ll call you back
Some people have to hear your tracks
Go back home and wait next to the phone

Two months later in her countryside
Waiting for the phone call of her life
No more news since she’s left California
But she trust the man

Yesterday she heard one of her song
What the fuck ? This is Paris Hilton !
Everybody just told her to kill herself
Now she’s gone to hell.

Because of you

There’s one thing I’d like you to know
Something I haven’t said before
I guess I should have said it all
But I’ve lost the words…

Looking back in the past
I realize I’m lost without you
I used to forget that
One and one is always two
Your voice fills my mind
And I hope mine is filling yours too
You make beat my heart
There’s nothing I can do

Coz I feel like in the sky
Because of you
I can see the sun shine
I am still alive because of you
I’m yours and you are mine

I know I haven’t always been
The one you defenitly need
In spite of everything you know
I know what went wrong.

Rain in the sunrise

Johnny’s on the highway
Comes back from a show
Veins full of white pills, yeah

Kelly stands on the roof
Of a huge building
She’s forgot what life means

This is happening everyday
And the story’s the same
Not even twenty
And they’re all previously gone away
It’s destiny
Like a rainy day when the sun is high

Terry’s in the subway
Drowning in his blood
He just took a bullet

Alice’s in her bedroom
With her fucking disease
Slowly waiting for death

Life ain’t so fine
Too young to die
So much to lose
Which way to choose ?
Where all are they going ?

Whistling in the wind

On a way, two young prisoners
Watching their back
Just escaped from St Quentin
All the city cops are now
Following they’re on their own

One of both, Jimmy The Bouncer
Fell on the ground
Policemen are firing at him
Till his last breath he tried
To get the fuck out of this hole

It was the only way to feel free
This is death or glory
Crossed the point of no return
The only way to finally feel safe
Running out of this place
To hear the birds
And see the sun shine again

By the way, Tommy the Though Guy
Fell on a trap
Struggling for independance
He’ll never give it up
He finally knows what he’s waiting for

In the end, Tommy came back home
Enjoy his bed
No one can no longer
Treat him like a piece of shit
He’s ready now to rest in peace.

Sex with your ex

Dear Billie I wrote this song
And I sing it all along, yeah
Do you remember your wife ?
You’re in jail but now she’s fine, yeah

We were friends but now it’s time
To reveal you I don’t mind
Cause no …

I don’t know who stole all your cigarettes
But I did have sex with your ex
She gives good head
Guess what ?
She’s mine right now
And you know I won’t be your guest
But I do shop with your Vette
Don’t be afraid
Guess what ?
It’s mine right now

Hey Billie yeah thanks for all
You changed my life
I won’t change yours, no

So sorry it’s not my fault
I saw her ass
And then I fell in love ..

Alone for the rest of your life
While I’ll be having so much fun
I’m getting laid with my wife
Cause she’s not yours no more.

Oregon, USA

Victoria was her name
Quite tall, blond hair, eyes grenny blue
We used to be friends
And more for a night or maybe two

She was gone out of my mind
We met on Shaftesbury Avenue
I said welcome back in town
But where, yeah
Where the fuck have you been ?

Ha-ha, ha-ha, she said
Ha-ha, ha-ha, yeah
Oregon, USA

She really looked so hot
Last time at the Mexican soirée
She smoked too much pot
Because of her so-called fiancé

She was crawling on the ground
Shitfaced, and nothing really left to say
It’s so good to see you around
But where, yeah
Where the fuck have you been ?

It reminds me of Alwin Depauw

Everyday it’s still the same
I try to sink my sorrow
Anyway who’s to blame ?
I guess that I’ll be dead tomorrow

It makes me feel like a ghost
It’s killing me down
They all seem but no one knows
I’m choking all alone

Today’s just another day
The last one of my life
Much better than yesterday
I’m fine …

Johnny Walker in the mix
Now we’re drunk like pigs
It reminds me of Alwin Depauw
Should I roll another spliff ?
Well, I’m really too pissed
And I’m sick of my Nintendo
Maybe I should take a ride
But I’m still too high
And I don’t know
If someday I’ll be okay like before

Yet another sleepless night
And pain invades my head now
Out of breathe and bloodshot eyes
I guess I’ll soon be dead, yeah

Once again my mouth is dry
They’re scabs in my nose
My pulse’s beating out of time
Looks like an overdose.

Stars + straps

Everyday you act like a star
In the end, anyway, who do you think you are ?
All you do is dreaming about
Getting rich, fuck your bitch
And drive a big car

What would you do for money and fame ?
Tell your lies, live your life
Like it was just a game
Happiness is gone far away
Heroin, cocaine had driven you insane

Everyday you feel like Brad
But you don’t fuck Angie
Anyway, you’re a jerk
And you will never be me

Is anybody believes in your lies ?
Do you know, do you know
What you just only are ?

All you do to be the new star
Drives you ill, up your bill
Now swallow up your pride

Do you feel better
Or just maybe clever ?
Well, I do think you don’t
You’re just a loser, a prick and a user
So get yourself fucked right now.